Nae Aadmi Ka Confession

kabhi ye bhi KHwahish pareshan karti hai mujh ko

ki main apne bhitar ke main ko nikalun

magar mere main ki to surat bahut hi buri hai

KHabasat ka ambar jis mein nihan hai

sarafa se jis ki karahat ayan hai

jabin par KHatarnak sochon ke jangal uge hain

bhayanak iradon ke wahshi chhupe hain

nigahon mein jis ki hawasnakiyon ke manazir bhare hain

manazir bhi aise ki jin mein

zina aise logon ke hamrah karne ko socha gaya hai

badan jin ke jinsi bulughat ko pahunche nahin hain

ya wo jo bulughat ki sari kashish kho chuke hain

ya wo jin se koi muqaddas sa rishta juDa hai

mere main ki surat buri hai

ki dandan darindon ki surat

kisi sahme simTe kunware badan mein gaDe hain

ki matam-kade mein bhi aankhen kisi jism ki burjiyon par Tiki hain

ki biwi baghal mein magar zehn mein aur hi koi tan-man khila hai

ki pagli bhikaran ke tan aur andhe bhikari ke kashkol par bhi nazar hai

buri hai bahut hi buri hai

ki dil mein aizza ki amwat ki KHwahishen bhi dabi hain

kai be-gunah gardanen ungliyon mein phansi hain

ki lafz-e-ayaadat mein bimar ki maut ki bhi dua hai

buri hai buri hai

ki ahbab ki jit par dil dukhi hai

ki aulad ki bartari se chubhan hai

ki bhai ke raushan jahan se jabin par shikan hai

buri hai buri hai

ki jo palta hai usi ki nafi hai

ki jo pujta hai usi se dagha hai

ajab ubaD-khabaD si main ki zamin hai

ki us mein kahin bhi tawazun nahin hai

kisi bhi tarah ka tanasub nahin hai

jahan chahiye hausla buzdili hai

jahan rasti ki zarurat kaji hai

jahan chahiye aman ghaarat-gari hai

jahan chahiye qurb wan fasla hai

jahan sulh-e-kul chahiye garmiyan sardiyan hain

agar mere main ki ye surat mere KHol ki bahar sath par aa gai

to zamana mujhe kya kahega

yahi soch kar apni is aarzu ke badan mein

tabar bhaunk deta hun aksar

magar ye tamanna

ki main apne bhitar ke main ko nikalun

mere dil mein rah rah ke kyun jagti hai

sabab us ka ye to nahin hai

ki main apne andar ki shaffaf makruh surat dikha kar

zamane ki aankhon mein KHud ko baDa dekhna chahta hun

ya ye ki musalsal sharafat ke naTak se tang aa chuka hun

ya phir ye ki ab

bahari shakl-o-surat mein meri

kashish koi

baqi

nahin hai