Aap-biti

1

yun to marne ke liye zahr sabhi pite hain

zindagi tere liye zahr piya hai main ne

shama jalti hai par ek raat mein jal jati hai

yan to ek umr isi tarah se jalte guzri

kaun si KHak hai ye jaane kahan ka hai KHamir

ek nae sanche mein har roz hi Dhalte guzri

kis tarah main ne guzari hain ye gham ki ghaDiyan

kash main aisi kahani ko suna bhi sakta

tana-zan hain jo mere haal pe arbab-e-nashat

un ko ek bar main ai kash rula bhi sakta

main ki shaer hun main paighambar-e-fitrat hun

meri taKHil mein hai ek jahan-e-bedar

dastaras mein meri nazzara-e-gul-ha-e-chaman

mere idrak mein hain kun-fayakun ke asrar

mere ashaar mein hai qalb-e-hazin ki dhaDkan

meri nazmon mein meri ruh ki dil-doz pukar

phir bhi rah rah ke khaTakti hai mere dil mein ye baat

ki mere pas to alfaz ka ek parda hai

sirf alfaz se taswir nahin ban sakti

sirf ehsas mein haalat ki tafsir kahan

sirf fariyaad mein zaKHmon ki wo zanjir kahan

aisi zanjir ki ek ek kaDi mein jis ki

kitni khoi hui KHushiyon ke manazir pinhan

kitni bhuli hui yaadon ke pur-asrar khanDar

kitne ujDe hue luTe hue sunsan nagar

kitne aate hue jate hue chehron ke nuqush

kitne bante hue miTte hue lamhat ka raaz

kitni uljhi hui rahon ke nasheb aur faraaz

2

kya kahun mujh ko kahan lai meri umr-e-rawan

aankh kholi to har ek samt andheron ka saman

rengti unghti maghmum si ek rahguzar

gard-e-alam mein khoya hua manzil ka nishan

gesu-e-sham se lipTi hui gham ki zanjir

sina-e-shab se nikalti hui fariyaad-o-fughan

ThanDi ThanDi si hawaon mein wo ghurbat ki thakan

dar-o-diwar pe tarik se sae larzan

kitni khoi hui bimar o fasurda aankhen

TimTimate se diye chaar taraf nauha-kunan

muzmahil chehre masaib ki giran-bari se

dil-e-majruh se uThta hua ghamnak dhuan

yahi tariki-e-gham to mera gahwara hai

main isi kokh mein tha nur-e-sahar ke manind

har taraf sog mein Duba hua mera mahaul

mera ujDa hua ghar 'mir' ke ghar ke manind

ek taraf azmat-e-aslaf ka mathe pe ghurur

aur ek samt wo iflas ke phaile hue jal

bhuk ki aag mein jhulse hue sare arman

qarz ke bojh se jine ki umangen pamal

waqt ki dhund mein lipTe hue kuchh pyar ke git

mehr o iKHlas zamane ki jafaon se niDhaal

bhai bhai ki mohabbat mein nirale se shukuk

nigah-e-ghair mein jis tarah anokhe se sawal

ek hangame pe mauquf thi ghar ki raunaq

muflisi sath liye aai thi ek jang-o-jidal

faqa-masti mein bikharte hue sare rishte

tang-dasti ke sabab sari fazaen behaal

ek jahannam ki tarah tha ye mera gahwara

is jahannam mein mere bap ne dam toD diya

TuT kar rah gae bachpan ke suhane sapne

mujh se munh pher liya jaise meri shoKHi ne

mere hanste hue chehre pe udasi chhai

jaise ek raat bhayanak mere sar par aai

rahen dushwar magar rah-numa koi na tha

samne wusat-e-aflak KHuda koi na tha

mere ajdad ki miras ye viran sa ghar

jis ko ghere hue har samt tabahi ke bhanwar

jis ki chhat girti hui TuTa hua darwaza

har taraf jaise bikharta hua ek shiraaza

na kahin atlas-o-kamKHwab na diba-o-harir

har taraf munh ko basore hue jaise taqdir

mujh ko us ghar se mohabbat to bhala kya hoti

yan agar dil mein na jine ki tamanna hoti

ye samajh kar ki yahi hai meri qismat ka likha

us ki diwar ke sae mein lipTa rahta

lekin is dil ki KHalish ne mujhe bedar kiya

mujh ko haalat se aamada-e-paikar kiya

be-kasi raKHt-e-safar ban kar mere sath chali

yaad aai thi mujhe ganw ki ek ek gali

lahlahati hui faslen wo mere aam ke bagh

wo makanon mein larazte hue dhundle se charagh

dur tak pani mein phaile hue wo dhan ke khet

aur talab-kinare wo chamakti hui ret

mere ham-umr wo sathi wo mere ham-joli

mere school ke wo dost meri wo Toli

ek bar un ki nigahon ne mujhe dekha tha

jaise ek bar mere dil ne bhi kuchh socha tha

main ne jab wadi-e-ghurbat mein qadam rakkha tha

dur tak yaad-e-watan aai thi samjhane ko